Why I Believe
|January 3, 2014||Posted by William J Murray under Intelligent Design|
I love and thoroughly enjoy believing that I have free will; that I have a soul; that god exists, and that my existence will continue on in some sentient format forever; that I will be reunited with loved ones after death; I love the feeling of love, fulfillment, joy, and hope these beliefs instill in my life on a day to day basis. I love the amazing miracles I see every day that reassure me that the divine exists and is all around me.
I appreciate the patience these beliefs provide me; the profound sense of meaning and value for every kindness and good thing that I encounter and that I can muster for those I love; the stability and peace in my own mind it offers as I take care of a parent succumbing to alzheimers and endure my own challenges as an aging grandfather. Any ridicule or condescension directed at me for these views pale to insignificance against the hope and peace these beliefs offer to temper the agony and grief that can sometimes be very difficult to bear in my time here.
Without these beliefs I was a wreck of self-centered angst, anger and hopelessness, living in abject poverty without good motivation or consideration for others. I changed my beliefs, and my life completely changed. More importantly, I changed. There are a lot of people here at UD that helped me accomplish this, even if you didn’t know it at the time. I was looking for a way to believe in god again, and you offered exactly what I needed.
And the great thing is, even if god and the afterlife doesn’t exist, even if I’m a stupid, foolish idiot for believing, at least for the duration between now and non-existence I have had that joy, sense of love, hope and fulfillment, a profound sense of value and meaning, along with the other successes in my life that those beliefs have apparently wrought. And if there is nothing but nothingness awaiting me when I pass, there will not even be the opportunity for me to be disappointed or feel chagrined. I will just be gone, after living a wonderful life thanks to the beliefs – and the faith – that saved me.
Happy New Year!